What is time with God supposed to look like? I used to have this perception that it needed to look a certain way. That it should be all or nothing, and if I couldn’t get up every morning and sit down with God for one hour then I just shouldn’t spend time with God at all that day. I would just have to wait until the next day that I had the time.

No, this was not from God. This was a lie that I was believing. It was my desire for control. I was telling God when it worked for me to spend time with him and when it didn’t. Well, I bet you can guess how that went- days and days would pass without me even acknowledging the Lord. I would be running myself ragged trying to do everything else and at the same time feeling depleted and guilty because I hadn’t communicated with God in days.

Two things I’ve learned: